A... Stressed... Head...!

Hello!

I know I'm lazy with my posts, but I recently started up a calendar! I'll be posting (hopefully) every Sunday!! 
My head has been super duper stressed out lately - from school work, creative blocks, procrastination, secrets, bodily functions... Oh boy, there's nothing going on in my life but somehow my brain is changing every thought to create a big, scary, thought storm. I'm honestly ready to burst, starting from my head!

It's come to the point where thoughts actually, physically make my brain hurt. So here are a few things going on in my head; right now! Warning, it's long! But, I really plead for some advice, if any :3

• SCHOOL WORK

Basically it's a huge muddled mess that I'm actually staying on top of... My favourite subject is math, and we're doing trigonometry and I love it! Although I'm quite embarrassed to say so.

• CREATIVE BLOCKS

I'm really trying hard to think of new post ideas and story ideas, and they're coming so slow, I feel dead inside...

• PROCRASTINATION

I'm just a huge procrastinator and it's greatly impacting my life in horrific ways.

• BODY

Recently, at my job, I wasn't feeling well, but I worked through it and didn't sit out - which was a PAIN. I didn't think anything of it, but when I got home, I found out I'd gotten my first period!! It's really scary, actually, blood gushing out of you every few minutes. I've had to brave this shit for 6 days. 6 DAYS!!! Ugh, everything is a struggle, from sitting to standing and having it gush everywhere, from clothes being ruined, from having to change the dirty, smelly nappy thing and try to be quiet in public bathrooms, cramps and cravings. Hey, at least I've become a woman!!

• SEXUALITY

Recently, it has come to my attention that I find girls quite attractive. But, I'm still fixated on boys. And my mind changes pretty quickly, too. One minute, I'll be thinking about whether I'd go out with a girl, and as soon as I accept it, I think, ew - not for me... And I find it very very frustrating that every few minutes I've changed my mind on whether I like girls or not. And it doesn't help that I'm crushing on a guy, so I'm always wondering. Help! I've taken quizzes, looked at forums. Maybe I'm just bi-curious. But I don't know...

• A BIG SECRET

Recently I discovered a huge family secret. I discovered that I could be moving - half way across the world. And whilst that country is one of my favourites in the world, I feel guilty.

This year I discovered my best friends, the ones I really want to never, ever leave my side. I love them so, so much. I feel really guilty when I think about the possibility (though quite small, but still existent!!) of me moving, but I just can't help but feel excited.

I would miss them so much; but I really want to move out of this tiny town, and begin a real life with real opportunities that you'd never get where I live. I've just never had to make new friends before, so this is gonna be tough (if I actually go)

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Thank you so much for listening, I'm sorry some of the subjects are a bit taboo. Hey, that's what this anon feature is for! Feel free to email me (see contact page) if you have anything to talk about :)

Just a Girl, signing off xx

Middle School Advice!

Hello!

So, as you know, I'm from Australia, and most schools are primary school (Prep or Preschool to Year 6 or Year 7) and high school (Year 7 or Year 8 to Year 12). So the school system completely wipes out the idea of middle school. But, I know generally, middle school takes in the ages of about 11 to 15, right? Please correct me if I'm wrong!

But, whilst I am still 13 (almost 14!) I'm in Grade 9, which I think is typically the first year of high school, so I thought I would give some advice to my younger readers. I know it's halfway through the Australian school year, and I know that America and England's schooling system is typically almost over, and I don't know if other countries are different, but I felt like writing this for you today, so here goes!!

• Make-Up

Normally schools have a 'no make up' rule. Also, I think using make up as a young girl really takes away from your freedom and self esteem. But I thought I'd tell you something. Sure, use some concealer to cover up those spots you feel uncomfortable about, but don't wear a full face of make up. Save your make up face for a beautiful or important night, so you look your best! You'll feel way more confident in your natural face on a daily basis, and feel really beautiful on occasions when you wear make up!

• School Work

Keep up to date with your school work and homework. Yes, it's tiring, but you need to get it done. Once you receive homework or an assignment, start doing it as soon as possible. I've picked up the habit to leave it to the last moment, and I feel miserable when the moment comes around and I have barely started. Make sure you always study for up coming tests. I always leave it to the lunch break before and it makes me very nervous!

• Friends

Make sure you stick by your friends. Believe in them, support them, and be by their side. Never strain yourself, though. Don't hang out with them when you don't feel like it. They'll understand. Don't ditch them. Don't hang out with people you don't feel comfortable around or don't feel happy around. Don't worry about finding your best friends immediately. Your friend circle will always change, accept that. You'll always have someone around! Take care of all your friends and keep them and yourself happy!

• Relationships (Romantic)

Whether you're attracted to boys, girls, or both, it's okay. People will make you feel like it's not. Always remember when going for a relationship that if they make you feel uncomfortable or unhappy (in your company) then don't go for it. Make sure they're nice! Be careful. Never be mean to them. Don't let your relationship take over your school work, family and friends. Stay happy. Don't listen to anyone who doesn't like it. Like Taylor Swift said, "people throw rocks at things that shine... it's not theirs to speculate if it's wrong". Always listen to Taylor Swift!

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I hope you enjoyed this post!! I'm getting the newest version of PhotoShop soon! My laptop broke and I lost everything, all my old photos, stories, book marks, and screen shots (v important). I also lost PhotoShop. So I'm getting PhotoShop back soon, and that mean's I'll make introductory banners on my posts. Anyway, so long, farewell, see you in the next post!

Just a girl, signing off xx